what i want to learn;

i want to learn how to except myself for who i am. i know i can't be taught this, but it's something i need to do.
i have the lowest self confidence. i just want to be happy with myself and find someone who loves me for me.
i'm afraid i'll be alone forever.


as far as school goes, i want to learn to speak fluent spanish.

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight
I remember the days we spent together,
Were not enough, and it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight
I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

silent beats;

the film silent beats, i felt that people make judgments against people due to stereotypes. the Asian guy was all worried that the African American kid was gonna steal or rob him or something because they have a reputation. but it's not like all African Americans steal or are criminals. just like in the film that old lady stole some candy bars. & she' was afraid of the African American boy & she was the one stealing!
i just think it's dumb that people judged that boy and they didn't even know what he was going through.

do you make judgements about people because of certain stereotypes?

grading period;

this first grading period went pretty well. i've got good grades & i'm glad it's over.
this is my favorite class though, i've come to realise that.

SWOT analysis;

how i study:
                i study alone while listening to music.

STRENGTHS: I don't have anyone to bother me. at all. it's great. i get the 'muse' of music. it keeps me on track.
WEAKNESSES: I don't have the opportunity to work in a group; i lack social skills.
OPPORTUNITY: i get to mulitask. it's a new way to learn things.
THREATS: IPod could die. get distracted by songs i don't like. don't remember things i learn. too focused on music rather than work.

a year from now;

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.

logo;

discussion questions;

what are your feelings toward public schools not having a musical program?

research paper;

for my research project I'm going to be researching the 'Save the Music Foundation'.
-save the music foundation creates a long term musical program for students that aren't finacially stable.
- the foundation supplies puplic elementary and middle schools with brand new instraments.
- the foundation insists that all children need music to receive a full educational experience.

I find this foundation really interesting. this non-profit does a really beautiful thing; going into schools and letting music flow through the hearts of people. I'm really connected to music and how it makes me feel. i think what this foundation does really impacts the lives of many, many people. I chose this topic beacuse i love music & i think every student should have the opportunity to play & feel great.

twenty questions game;

Jordan Dreyer;

• what's your full name?
• when's your birthday?
• what;s your favorite thing about life?
• How did you know you wanted to sing?
• do you write all your songs?
• who are you influenced by?
• have you ever been in love?
• did she break your heart?
• how'd you cope with it? i still can't get over that 'one'.
• what's the best thing to ever happen to you?
• what's the worst?
• describe your ideal woman.
• what would be the perfect ending to a perfect day?
• how do you write and sing such beautiful things?
• have you ever been cheated on?
• have you ever cheated?
• have you ever done anything you regretted?
• what was it?
• what's your favorite band to listen to when you're feeling down?
• would you ever consider talking to me again?

my sites;

• . it makes me realize there are people just like me on the other side of the world. it takes over my life.
• it's a blog site, only there is tons of pictures, GIFS, videos, and soo much more. i use it to socialize with people who have similar intrests.
• positives: it's sooo fun! you can scroll on your dash forever! this website is my muse.
• negitives: there's a lot of hate on the website for whatever reason. people always have to one up someone else and someone will end up getting hurt.
• competitors would be blogger or even facebook. it's a social networking site, only it's a blog, so i'm not sure how to define it. i like tumblr better because it's easy to use, it's addicting, and it's just better than facebook and blogger.
• an automatic dashboard updater. it bothers me when you have to go all the way to the top to update the feed.

• the people on the site are people i know.
•  i use it to play apps and talk to my friends.
•  positives: it's insanely popular & everyone has one.
• negitives: all the updates made it dumb.
• a competitor would be google+. i don't have a google+ but it's starting out like facebook, you need a certain e-mail, but i see in google+'s future it'll be big like facebook.
• i would change it back to the way it was. the new updates makes me feel like a stalker.

• i like the new layout. it's easier to use.
• i use the site to email & talk to friends/important people.
• positives: it's pretty simple to use.
• negitives: if you're using SMS, it takes FOREVER to recieve them. it makes you think the person you're talking to hates you.
• a competitor would be MSN or G-mail. Yahoo is so much more professional and easier to use.
• i don't think i would change anything, really. maybe a faster SMS receiver.

• i like how you can customize your channel and make it your own.
• i use this site to put my concert videos on & listen to music.
• postives: the like & dislike buttons. You hear that facebook?! youtube has a dislike button!
• negitives: there is a lot of hate and discrimination in the comments. it's just dumb.
• site competitor would be Hulu, a rapidly growing video site. i've never used it before, but i hear it's awesome.
• i'd change the fonts. it just bothers me that it's all the same default fonts.

• i like that you can give your opinion about the music you listen to.
• i use the site to listen to music. it's internet radio.
• positives: the new updates! it's so lovely now.
• negitives: i can't figure out how to bookmarks songs anymore. :(
• competitors, i can't think of any. i guess sites that you can download music from, like Itunes, but i don't really know.
• i'd put the 'bookmark this track' back on. i love songs that i hear on there but i can never find them again. 

about madeline;

How do you spell love? You don't spell it, you feel it;
i never fall apart because i never fall together. i'm a romantic, i'm indecisive,  i'm a realist & that's about it. i live in a world of fantasy; keep your reality away from me. i see what i want to see and that's okay by me.
I write to keep my sanity. i'm pretty lame.

*keep going; you're beautiful.